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This was my question from ages 7 or 8. When I was in a room alone, I would look at my hands and ask, Who am I? I felt some sort of separation from my body. The body felt unfamiliar to me. I never asked my parents and tried not to be alone by myself.

 

  • After a while I found the answer (wrongly) to my question as I identified myself with my body and, most importantly, my mind. I became my mind and everything that was going on in it.

 

  • When I got older, my mind and also society and the culture would dictate to me who I was. I am what I achieve--education, job, title, material goods ( house, car, money in the bank) etc.

 

  • My mind also identified me with my family (husband, children) etc.

 

  • I felt extremely insecure since all of the above were changing at all the time and at any moment I could lose them. I was living in fear, anxiety, insecurity and a sense of non-fulfillment.  Something was always missing.

 

  • Because of this, I could not face the present moment and was always planning and looking forward a future that brings me peace and security.

 

  • Our mind tells us the following:

-The more the better
-If I get more, I will be happier
-What I have is not enough
-For security I need to payoff my home  

  • During the middle age, we will reach most of our cravings and desires, such as good education, job, a happy marriage, beautiful children, a beautiful  home, brand new car, no home mortgage or car loan, enough cash in the bank, good vacations etc. The problem is that there is something from inside that is missing that we don't know what it is. We are still in fear and insecure, not in peace, not joyful. We know this could not be everything life has to offer.